This time of year is a time of reflection – a time to look back and reminisce about days, months and years gone by. For myself – I don’t look at my past with regret as my past was about learning and growing. Looking at my life now, I can’t believe how much I have changed – all for the greater good. My blog today is emotionally therapeutic (for me) and I hope that it allows you to perform the same exercise to determine how much you have changed and hopefully for your greater good and for the planet.
Here is a list of what I wanted or desired at the age of 21:
- To become wealthy.
- Have a great job that paid really well.
- Have a really expensive car.
- Have friends that were influential and wealthy.
- Buy a big condo or house.
- Party, party, party.
- Have expensive clothing.
- Have expensive furniture.
- Have a rich partner/boyfriend.
- Be away from my family.
- Have the latest gadgets.
- Travel.
- Not care for anyone else but myself.
Today – my priorities have changed. Maybe it’s because I learned that many of the things I wanted would only bring me temporary satisfaction. I was at a place where I didn’t really like too many people and didn’t really like myself. I was too busy trying to be liked and to please everyone else but myself. I only cared about how I looked, what I had and how drunk I was. Well, that has completely changed (although, I still love my shiraz, but in a completely different way).
What is important to me today and what do I really want……
- I would love to have friends who don’t judge me on my lifestyle choices (especially being vegan).
- I want to be more connected to the planet and help her heal.
- I want people to be authentic about who they really are.
- I want to live a more sustainable life.
- I want people to start a REVOLUTION OF LOVE.
- I would love if people turned off their televisions.
- I would love if people really thought for themselves and not be distracted by government and corporate lies.
- I would love if people spread love and positive energy.
- I love that I value family more than ever before.
- I don’t need MORE, I need LESS.
- I am satisfied in whatever I do.
- I am not plagued by wanting or needing more money or financial wealth.
- I don’t need a BIG car.
- I don’t need a BIG house.
- I don’t need superficial friends who only care about themselves and being distracted.
- I love those who are eccentric.
- I love people who don’t conform.
- I love people who think outside the box and without judgements.
- I love being GAY.
- I love being authentic.
- I love ME.
- I love animals.
- I love the planet.
There is no point in thinking about the past anymore – it is gone and there is nothing any of us can do about it. The past has passed. There is nothing I can do about the future – I have no idea what will happen. I don’t enjoy making long-term plans. I don’t want to work my life away to save money for a future I can’t foresee. What I can do – is live for this moment. The moment that is happening right now. I love that I am expressing myself via the words I am typing right now. I feel alive, I am in the moment and I am enjoying every minute of it. Should I die right now – at least I would have died doing something I love. I am doing what I am meant to be doing – at this moment, right now. I am writing these words, every once in a while – glancing at my dog and feeling the warmth of my fire. I am so glad that I have changed and am living the life that is no-one else’s but my own.
What will you find out about yourself by reflecting on your past?
COALITION OF POSITIVE ENERGY 